At first day of our 3rd Quarterly exam, I already got my hopes down of being one of the top 10 again. :( Just after taking the test, we checked our test papers and our teacher allowed us to review the results afterwards. I held mine with both hands as my eyes desperately search for corrections with tears threatening to fall. My heart was completely filled with regrets. Regretting why did I just let myself to took that subject for granted. Wherein fact I knew beforehand that my SQ's and LQ's weren't enough to catch me if I fall.
My parents doesn't expect any high grades from me since then. Ever. Meaning, I knew for sure that I wouldn't be scolded once I got home. When they saw the dreadful result of my failure, they just fed me of motivating and inspirational words saying that they're not looking forward for high grades from me, that I'll still pass in spite of what I've got, that there'll be always next time and all those stuffs which made me wanna cry out of joy. For once more, I realized that no matter what will I get, no matter what person I was, I am, and will be in the future, I will and always have them right by my side. You guys just dont know how much I feel blessed having them around. ♥
But somehow, I still feel so down and frustrated. My dream of seeing my parents walking with me up to the stage were no longer possible. I might have a better remarks next quarter but Im quite sure that I'll get line of 7 in my card in any subject this time and that's it; I couldn't make it anymore to the final. :( If only I exerted effort in studying.. I could have higher or atleast a passing score. No no no. Scratch that. I couldn't live my whole life regretting the past, could I? All I can just do right now is to learn to accept the awful truth, learn from my mistake and get up from my downfall. All wholeheartedly dedicated to my major source of inspiration, my parents. :D
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Our parents are indeed the greatest gifts anyone could ever have.
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